Monday, June 29, 2015

Somewhere Somehow


a bit of each of us when lonely becomes like the sun blazing consuming the moon flirting hidden now bright only in singular night-light................ losing and finding an other touch ocean reaching for rain.......finding losing you over and over again........as each of us has part dying part being born




Saturday, June 6, 2015

Resolve


ODE TO BITTER EVE EIGHTEEN
remote coldly distant place within the middle of your soul outside of the inside of your mind inside the outside of your heart joyless life but life calling for a decision weeping overwhelming suffocating drowning until just one step choice remains live or die or live insane colors seep into black and white devoid vacant desolate
Resolve clinging focus good God others meaning happinesses. friends love's struggling reach fills as ocean in sand hole emptying empty hurting to question why so much change pain bring healing to hold to one simple good at a time staying alive thirsting dry longing deserted hungering unfilled lonely unoccupied
no sun warms cold no light shows comfort Struggle for joy lost Dread dooms quizzically dumbed numbed succumbed Fear threatening terror missing pieces disorienting disturbing chance tides of hope fades Resolve clinging focus good God others meaning happinesses
never to know the cost
As after death before birth is soul being no shortcut delete key erase re-boot
Resolve clinging focus good God others meaning happinesses.


Thursday, May 21, 2015

Love Touch Light


As a lover moves truly away ever so slowly to keep last touch as softly close to next touch, the earth turns from the sun in long contact easing into dark yearning for feeling of dawn........ A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat

Monday, May 18, 2015

Because Of With You


When I dance I am with you when sing I am with you when I smile I am with you when I love I am with you wherever everywhere always whenever timeless here and now across and beyond with eternally with...........A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Change My Soul You


from this that I am no longer whatever I was nor will ever be

beside you
holding hands
you letting me into your eyes totally wholly
I going in to your eyes with every me of existence
hug
kiss upon cheek
cheek upon kiss passion flame........


my soul has changed


part of you now being was is in of it
the part that every lover shares with each other
made so because I am perfectly happy of with your happiness
and my body my heart needs your presence
and you have another you love....who makes you happy
happiness that is part of my soul
I am both loved and unloved.... loved not enough and loved completely
then is my love not real but selfish and possessing
self possessed in longing for another
who gives my soul its part of love away from me
dying and being born at the same time
I cry and am comforted by the same
as you who brings me love to another goes you
I can but go mad.


I occasionally slip into a dream wish wherein you are walking around the corner to me
then I find you are appearing in a corner of my soul.......................


How can I love another now that I have found part of my soul in your soul?


where I long for you I love you how I am able


I can but go mad.


But how can I live
each in each other's eyes
holding hands
moving only but to kiss fervently each others cheek


how will I take sustenance
keep time
shall we move to shelter from the elements' fury
eat?
sleep?


I can but go mad.


So I love you without being with you
I love you without being close enough
to touch
to smell
to feel
to hear
to see
my yearning hunger consuming desire for you in your happiness needs to love you how I can ..... love you without being with you..
............................ love you how I can, as I must................................
or perish.
I know we may never return to each other.............
my yearning hunger consuming desire for you in your happiness with another needs to love you how I can ..... love you without being with you..
............................ love you how I can, as I must,
or perish............................................................................consumed in by my burning heart ..........
........
.........................loving