Times In Between

.............as ....now the lips are wet - yet there is thirst

....the heart is full - yet tenants emptiness ^^

the mind is still - yet there longing be................

the soul is at peace....yet strife wafts ^^

Gracing Grateful new moments beckoning....lighting

so many ways, paths to live, be with.... take to God.

Awaking Promise

AWAKE
It is early my love to be of being sweeping colors dawns joys harmony it is early my love ... ... .as the gracing of time touches shadow to light us with into around close together, my love.

PROMISE
...and how is the rest of you.... yet unseen, to know but by now love growing.

Woods Wondering Wonder

I wrote this tomorrow about today which will have been inspired by yesterday's yearning for continuing beauty always.

I was walking a far and woodsy path

when out jumped a cat with a question on math

insights inquiries and inquisitions resounded

queries on acids, amyloids, alkaloids, & Sigmund Freud

Wisdom for perfection of all humanity abounded

we danced and danced until the cat fell into a void.

Avoid? Approach? ahhh the old avoidance approach conflict!

reptilian brain hunger ran rampant for Lamb Eggs Benedict.

And that the story how I came to brunch with dear dear friends, for I left the far and woodsy path, and went to their house to eat with them and their dog and four cats. A very very HAPPY ending to begin continuing, with love..........................
.....dziękuję, gracias, 谢谢, ringrazio hanno, है धन्यवाद, remercier avoir, благодарю есть, thank you, أشكر ديك... A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat

Planked All About

          

ODE TO THE SIDE PLANK

*sung to your favorite song (that you can sing it to - good luck!)...

...

side plank side plank

cave. sea, Mont Blanc...

...

boots hat jacket in woods repose

do the side plank in any clothes!...

...

Side plank side plank that's how it goes!

.

......dziękuję, gracias, 谢谢, ringrazio hanno, है धन्यवाद, remercier avoir, благодарю есть, thank you, أشكر ديك... A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat

Knowing to Love

what's on my mind

is in my heart....................

what's in my heart

is on my mind...............

grace when they're put together

can myself, I fully find................

When finding myself, simple and true,

is then and where I'm cherishing you.

Oceanside California 2015

Skating mom and child

Beach dawn waters wild

Bicycles across paved lane

vivid deep hues reign

friends to nurture soul

places that make me whole

I’m thinking about now

I’m thinking about then,

I’m thinking about how,

I’m thinking about when……….

With handfulls and headfull

revolving stilled stopped spinning

Because of you,

All of me is grinning………………………….

dziękuję, gracias, 谢谢, ringrazio hanno, है धन्यवाद, remercier avoir, благодарю есть, thank you, أشكر ديك... A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat 

 

 

 

 

More (or less) Thermodynamics

This is the beginning of the Phanerogenics New body of Knowledge. 

 It is NON-FICTIONAL MATHEMATICS  AND PHYSICS. 

The first Chapter is: 

Optically Compartmentalized Miniature Thermonuclear Event Cellularification.

Earth: Stay Tuned!

Friend Time

Dear Friend,
I want to tell you.................................................


........... you make hallowed ground


I would tell you thank you for all you have given me.
but there'd be no time

I would recount all the laughs we had
but there'd be no time

I'd mention the times you touched my heart
but there'd be no time

I thought to confess how selfish I was with your time
but there'd be no time

I might reveal some of how much you mean to me
but there'd be no time

I, perhaps, would declare to live my life more like yours
but there'd be no time

Surely, I would express the joy you  gifted me
but there'd be no time

Certainly I'd reveal the moments you guided my lost soul
but there'd be no time

Undoubtedly I would recite the occasions I prayed for you at a distance
  but there'd be no time

Assuredly, I would read the poetry you inspired
but there'd be no time

But most importantly, I must tell you how much I love you

but there'd be no time

.... .. you make hallowed ground...........................................................

...... A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat

best blank to one and all...........................

She I Elevated

chains broken

freedom of obedience

searching unknown

bound earthly laws

peopled union

I so worshiped her I had not loved her

Somewhere Somehow

a bit of each of us when lonely becomes like the sun blazing consuming the moon flirting hidden now bright only in singular night-light................ losing and finding an other touch ocean reaching for rain.......finding losing you over and over again........as each of us has part dying part being born

Resolve

ODE TO BITTER EVE EIGHTEEN

remote coldly distant place within the middle of your soul outside of the inside of your mind inside the outside of your heart joyless life but life calling for a decision weeping overwhelming suffocating drowning until just one step choice remains live or die or live insane colors seep into black and white devoid vacant desolate

Resolve clinging focus good God others meaning happinesses. friends love's struggling reach fills as ocean in sand hole emptying empty hurting to question why so much change pain bring healing to hold to one simple good at a time staying alive thirsting dry longing deserted hungering unfilled lonely unoccupied

no sun warms cold no light shows comfort Struggle for joy lost Dread dooms quizzically dumbed numbed succumbed Fear threatening terror missing pieces disorienting disturbing chance tides of hope fades Resolve clinging focus good God others meaning happinesses

never to know the cost

As after death before birth is soul being no shortcut delete key erase re-boot

Resolve clinging focus good God others meaning happinesses.

Love Touch Light

As a lover moves truly away ever so slowly to keep last touch as softly close to next touch, the earth turns from the sun in long contact easing into dark yearning for feeling of dawn........ A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat

Because Of With You

When I dance I am with you when sing I am with you when I smile I am with you when I love I am with you wherever everywhere always whenever timeless here and now across and beyond with eternally with...........A wonderful world........un monde merveilleux........एक अद्भुत दुनिया..........un mundo maravilloso..........עולם מופלא.....Harika bir dünya......一个美好的世界 .............Как прекрасен этот мир............له من عالم رائع.. Peace and Health...... Paix et santé......शांति और स्वास्थ्य ............Paz y salud ..........שלום ובריאות......和平与健康......... Мир и здоровье ..........السلام والصحة "^ -" ^ CZat

flottante ensembles harmoniques pulsés; 浮動諧波脈衝套; floating harmonic pulsed sets;हार्मोनिक स्पंदित सेट तैर

Energy HK Title IV

Free floating harmonic pulsed sets integrated with pulsed parabolic frequency traffic amid synchronized locked sets.

Impurities in hyper-velocity; हाइपर-वेग में दोष; 在Hyper-速度杂质; Impuretés dans l'hyper-vitesse

Energy HK Title II

Impurities in hyper-velocity - bump titration for energy field turbulence sedation

Change My Soul You

from this that I am no longer whatever I was nor will ever be

beside you
holding hands
you letting me into your eyes totally wholly
I going in to your eyes with every me of existence
hug
kiss upon cheek
cheek upon kiss passion flame........


my soul has changed


part of you now being was is in of it
the part that every lover shares with each other
made so because I am perfectly happy of with your happiness
and my body my heart needs your presence
and you have another you love....who makes you happy
happiness that is part of my soul
I am both loved and unloved.... loved not enough and loved completely
then is my love not real but selfish and possessing
self possessed in longing for another
who gives my soul its part of love away from me
dying and being born at the same time
I cry and am comforted by the same
as you who brings me love to another goes you
I can but go mad.


I occasionally slip into a dream wish wherein you are walking around the corner to me
then I find you are appearing in a corner of my soul.......................


How can I love another now that I have found part of my soul in your soul?


where I long for you I love you how I am able


I can but go mad.


But how can I live
each in each other's eyes
holding hands
moving only but to kiss fervently each others cheek


how will I take sustenance
keep time
shall we move to shelter from the elements' fury
eat?
sleep?


I can but go mad.


So I love you without being with you
I love you without being close enough
to touch
to smell
to feel
to hear
to see
my yearning hunger consuming desire for you in your happiness needs to love you how I can ..... love you without being with you..
............................ love you how I can, as I must................................
or perish.
I know we may never return to each other.............
my yearning hunger consuming desire for you in your happiness with another needs to love you how I can ..... love you without being with you..
............................ love you how I can, as I must,
or perish............................................................................consumed in by my burning heart ..........
........
.........................loving

Accélération raillé pour l'expansion universelle de verrouillage dans Re-orbite Sous-atomique et macro-organisme Harmoniques Energy Series Title Three

Accélération raillé pour l'expansion universelle de verrouillage dans Re-orbite Sous-atomique et macro-organisme Harmoniques
Railed acceleration for Universal Expansion Latching in Re-orbiting Sub-Atomic and Macro-organism Harmonics 

Missing Having Missing

I awoke with you on my mind.............at first missing more of you than I have; then having more of you than I had without you................and above all else maddening love creating joy from wretched places attempting to block existence of the beautiful good.............................,not ever completely though without a pang pining not having you close.................

We

as words go.............
.......sometimes, its : I love you
.....sometimes its: I am loving you anyway
....sometimes its: I love you whoever I can

..Always, its: thank you for being you

Peace By Truth

I know my love for you is true..........
I know this in the peace of my soul that so within dwells with by of the grace happiness you have however that may be in wherever you abide..........if doubt ever comes to your house remind yourself ......that reluctance remanded be 

Intimate Unknown

until it hurts
in places inside me and outside of me
cold uncomfortable without you being
within my senses
I'll just cry a bit
and maybe a primal scream implode my heart
....................................
.........who are you
you must be from which I come
.........what are you
you must be that to which I proceed
.........why are you
you must be for why I am
Then as in primal forest wood smoke
held by every branch blade leaf and creature
.......... you saturate all my senses

in the dark intimate unknown light

From Fool To Lover

Today I am going on a journey


by foot
by car,
by ship,
by plane,
by soul,
I shall travel farthest by soul's light to the exclusion of all else
until I separate from myself and join with you
for now is the time for the impossible


sometimes I think I am too fond of myself to love you
sometimes I think because I am so fond of myself I want to love you
how else can I even justify the thought of loving the impossible
the impossible you


as it is impossible to please me
I choose the impossible to please me
I choose you
it is impossible to love one too fond of oneself
it is impossible for you to love me


having rejected everything - I have not other course
Thus I go
to make my breath with yours
whether it be my first......... or my last breath


Today I am going on a journey

Meditation

being here consciously working to put aside amazement in order to just enjoy the rain-bowed star spree space soft all senses in-taking gentle light from the single pulse point...........................  

Of St Valentine's

Happy spirit of St Valentine's to all whose paths be crossed as stranger, as friend, as neighbor, ....in all ways lived..... whatever be the name of God worshiped in whatever the language

How far goes the best of us
if not to others

another person.
.other things that are sacred
other ingredients of soul human
.home warmth comfort security

................love and joy....................and FUN

a wave, a smile, a leisurely movement in a sunny window, a laugh.........a pat on the back, a neighborly hug................
........................................

Unanswered Fully Totally Conscious

unanswered fully totally conscious.........no longer air breathing ......more as entire immersion in treacly tea potion awakening from dream dreaming more deeply knowing not of which I am but searching for you.............
not finding you I search for God.........then at some oasis in time some part of you revealed in creation totally distracts me........................... morning with first shafts of light upon cathedral-ed soul held fragilely in aging sacristy but I can not argue with God for such light ensconced in chapel-ed youth never expecting waves of battle raging in Occupied Heart yet blooms a flower in defiance to the war warring realities of distance difference time upon this earth speeds of selves physical carriers of soul needing pleading intervention Divine and visiting expectancy hopes upon nothing secure only in desire's hope............................................
I have
no arms to hold you when I most need to hold you
I have
no eyes to see you when I most need to see you
I have
no lips to kiss you when I most need to kiss you
The twin sirens of chaos dance now with around to and fro of/with/about me along the many-sided-line that God draws in the sand.....there is the glow of your light yes I have not crossed it no I have not yet even neared too close as the light upon the slightest encroachment becomes a sun.........totally consuming as I dance/mull/wonder chaoses and all the rest of the worlds beckoning unknown
day or night my longing makes to know not
nor Reason or Season
To God you attract me
From God you distract me
To God you direct me
From God you direct me
never expected waves of battle raging in Occupied Heart yet blooms a flower in defiance to the war.......................................

.................. unanswered fully totally conscious

From Never to Never

When all of what I think of the stuff I am is gone, all beauty nudges dutifully the least of me to such ascension..................because of you..........
.
at a great distance heard you speak closer your song stirred me and my first look into your eyes not like stars but the actual stars forever lost at home receiving your gifts giving mine rolling peace and longing

possessing desires distance you tempt weak tired shouts give up cold grip on fragile heart makes stronger beating for you summon grace I supplicate to grace for such together being

Happening To Us

life is happening to us . . .
we are happening to life . .


you are happening to me . . .
I am happening to you . . .


we are happening to life . .
life is happening to us . . .


webbed puzzle pieces personal intimacies resonate vibrate clarity if only for a few seconds holding precious closely hugging tightly with instant eternal reach suddenly struggling storm arrives separating longing lingering memories igniting searching for you with so much of me happening in/of/to/with you more intensely than ever hell and heaven gripped in placid fury warring peace............... balanced teetering balancing tottering will have been balancing instability ~~~~~~~~~~~~


life is happening to us . .
we are happening to life . .


...... moments together rare and few....... times of intimacy so intense warmth of separation from you now keeps me being



nothing lives as briefly as the promise of love................nothing strives more eternally as one yearning for love

Longing Dawn

Longing Dawn
I long for you, not the clockwork daily survival service to keep mortal shell "I" but  the "I" beyond the sun and moon, of timeless moving still with/in/of you never knowing any of you and all of you.............................................................. "you" of immeasurable joy unrestrained contained only in the good smile on others/another's/thine/mine heart..........where I am torn and whole knowing you at such distance in the center of my soul......  ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^  . ^^....I long for you....................

Because You Loved Me

..........and now there is only drowning in you....................................... no longer looking for air only movements like I used to do when I was an air breather.........................any struggle relinquished readily sweet surrender.....blissful grace inside you I surrender give away abandon rights free will submission admits total freedom being................................ How I love thee move still stay go pass pray touch think ~~~~~~~~~~~~~...here , we are.......this is how we are....

When Angel

softening heat cools touching hand upon shoulder an angel you cry I unable to move


what's tomorrow - I don't know; I don't know............................my heart tells me it only matters if it is with you.........

unless its today and I'm holding you for now tomorrow please never be

.

When Will We Live

I am thinking of you and a great terror comes upon me..............................I can't love you enough well wholly unselfishly.............. a discomfort grows physically ailing from my frail now barely beating heart though my irrelevant body muddling what's left of my mind and chilling my very soul......................I can't and so very much need want like desire hope strive and suffer unto such yearning hunger to love you yet not still consummately loving....................so scared approaching empty away....................... when will we live .............when will we live?

Age Grace

I am so awesomely happy and grateful!! This morning I came to the most wonderful awareness.........I understand and feel the gift of being my 68 years. The challenges of aging.......... its trials, perils.......... its unrelenting attack on youth are resolved in the harmony of the increasing memories of the past with the energy from love joy peace beauty and art of friendship newly becoming in the present. This balance of jubilance I offer to all who wish.


..............Such this morning's brunch of Brie, Blackberries, Almonds, and Rye Bread after my love touched me................................ stir sweetly up the reverie of a childhood day :

................unborn hearts in prepubescence womb being held so delicately..................... my six year old body knows not even I had traveled the 40 feet down Chicago's Lawndale Avenue ......from my brick apartment house to her back yard..... nor is it sensing time as I brush the long dark hair of eleven year old Roberta................her father had mowed the small early summer lawn and her mother watches Roberta and me from the second floor wooden porch as mid afternoon allows enough sun through the tenements to hallow blanket on ground .............. in warm days glow I whisk Roberta's hair innocently from the top of her head in eternal embrace with purity to the small of her back on blanket upon which she sits crossed legged back to me gazing up at parent................her hair drying in balmy air as I brush again seeing her mother's face soften angelically as her daughter's hair glistens under my boy-child hands in air perfumed with tender age touching angels fully being in heaven to this breath I take in my sixty-eighth year upon this same good earth.

Of Our Calm

...........oh beyond words friend in being as grace good is when how living ascendently gives..............................and so calms me this mindful prayer when we are not together..............