You Melt

 

Together To Be Not

No  NO!!!!  nO!!!  NO!

I ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
....................you
............distance too far ^^ minutes too few
............ needs choices seem to exclude me......................
............yet souls call embracing beastly
the hot pain fires rain
to extinguish your deeply hidden pain
too much each other
must to survive take another lover

I AM I

 

My Love Is So

 

Applause Pause

 

For Now Choosing Me

 

Who am I what am I doing who are you where are we why why not good bad happy sad ….…. etc.. blah blah blah…. On and on … contemplation meditation identity existence consciousness…….

We humans have WonderJoy all over everywhere

Black bear, tiny hare, fun fair, thought/prayer, camel’s hair!

wonder monthly full moon’s phases

every few years an eclipse amazes

On occasion enthralled by rainbow

Sun light Moon light Star light soul aglow

Earth shaking fire spewing volcano

soul soothing music o’divertimento 

green grapes yellow banana red tomato

Mother Theresa, Elvis, Michelangelo

backwards rationalization new neural pathways

reptilian brain memories evaluate holidays

So I think ponder of more because ……... I like to

numerous synergies neural oscillations do what brains do

It’s my brain for me – totally rad bitchin’ cool

imagine create ingenuous or ghoul volition retool

I’m choosing selecting willing picking deciding

love friends poetry peace and bicycle riding

such a miraculous overwhelming heaven or hell

wings of Angels/Devils…thoughts we choose where we dwell

Here There Now Then

 

Rapturousness of camaraderie, Delight of Solitude... ...............................

Dancing w friends, Lone meditation = beatitude........................................

Of what alloweth I into mine consciousness completely.........................

Becomes by volition, love to you gift wrapped sweetly........................

^^ Love notes, kind/caring words, laughter, embraces......................... engaging the world vivaciously w all in all places.......................................

^^^^ I LOVE US!!.......

Unfettered......Be Loving

 

….please know I’d never want you to feel sorry for anything

you didn’t do

while you were doing anything else out of love……

What Weight Upon Heart

 

wait - waiting wondering waiting anticipating

looking at a firecracker’s burning fuse

burst of joy gray clouds singing blues fun cruise

the fuse sputters another is lit then falls apart

waiting for joy – what will get that weight off her heart?

what even can that onerous burden be

dark furtive devious crushing abusively?

that weighs her down stifles her song

could it be God, no that would be wrong

whatever it is it is no small thing

as if all the Winters holding back Spring

If only the load could be lifted taken away

but it’s too pernicious and ready to betray

Its metastasizing while numbing the mind cloyed

what more painful than to see a friend’s joy destroyed?

Beaten back by those forces that cause soul death

I will fight for your release as long as I have breath

if you can in any way reach out and take my hand

as I’m forever reaching even as we crash land

A Simple Gesture

 

It was a simple gesture. Nothing complicated, subtle,

 covert, nor subject to interpretation or debate

loss forces reflection pain changes direction

inside depression outside aggression

where does balance lay truth and lies brings gray

as gnarled roots force into clay from above

heart of clay breaks as it smuggles in love

It was a simple gesture. Nothing complicated, subtle,

 covert, nor subject to interpretation or debate

Not even worth remembering ……….. so why

so why do I

do so?

It was straight forward

It wasn’t quite anything one sees everyday though, or even often. But it was only a simple gesture

Just things of metal and cotton

ordinary things easily forgotten

Things verged needing

not yet bleeding

simple gesture

things in my pocket

just to see what you’re becoming

watching your singular soulful beauty

gently putting life light into cloth cover

It was a simple gesture. Nothing complicated, subtle,

 covert, nor subject to interpretation or debate

A locker key and some ear phones

certainly not blood nor bones

only unexceptional objects of everyday use

easily understood, nothing anywhere abstruse

Merely a person detaching themselves from some earthly goods

going to run exercise unencumbered around some neighborhoods

But maybe, just maybe, time slowed …………… paused ...

a great multitude of usual predictable ordinary brought halt so much aligned

 camouflaged in everyday routine

a singular focus on momentous thing unseen

It was a simple gesture. Nothing complicated, subtle,

 covert, nor subject to interpretation or debate

Purely a place to store that which bothers one running freely

Yes, another’s pocket zipped secure must perform ideally

that’s all, work-a-day trivial nothing remarkable

Proper - not a thing explosive incendiary sparkable

Yet barely noticed or profoundly observed …………. there's what is simply beyond

 words...beyond words to a place so beautiful the heart aches.

dreams dance

storms quelled

safe harbors dwelled

with you quickly finds me in a rarefied moment where tenderness in the future is a given

It was a simple gesture. Nothing complicated, subtle,

 covert, nor subject to interpretation or debate

With the layers of clothes protecting my from cold

I could not even feel the placement

………...a simple gesture………………

Yet it held time still – still enough to draw the totality of your attention …… and for those seconds nothing else mattered to me

……. for what you put in my pocket only started as objects…

only started as objects….

things that took about nine seconds to secure

Nine seconds that stopped time

..as you took the focused intense action of securing them ……

…….. they became t r u s t …

..trust that went through my pocket into my soul where it remains ^

and will remain protected, defended, and held sacred until mine mortal shell releases its

 life force

It was a simple gesture. Nothing complicated, subtle,

 covert, nor subject to interpretation or debate

You Have Me

 

You are sick, you are well

You give up, you give 'em hell 

You giggle and are gleeful

You're on meds with a refill

No reason to get out of bed

Loving each child breastfed 

Living no limits bee bop boogie barrage

punish! more bars to cage self sabotage 

I'll back up every other lover whatever you want – done!

I'll create caring your change...each breath, one by one

I'm dedicated to keep learning how to care

I beg you to trust me and your pain share

                      

Doing my best please don't go far

I'm devoted to love wherever you are

I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

 

...so thus I pray:

may my yearnings

for the impossible With You

be Your Joy

for then You will be with Perfect Happiness

 

..new

to love another moment another

               truly anew

       wholly

the same person never being as was 

but changing

 

as 

 love evolves………...

Everyone in No One Must Can't Loving

tormented by the mundane demands of life

struggling for excellence in boring strife

rare transcendence in lullaby singing

breast feeding intimacy jubilantly stinging

too long too long between joys

yearning for bliss summoning only noise

You are like the roiling constant exchange of sand and sea

unsure whether to consume or be consumed completely

………………..and in it all……………………………….

I like you………………………………………...

I like you just the way you are

I like you dull I like you shiny

savor your sweetness relish your briney

I like you with a smile – straight face - or frown

you let me look through you as a kaleidoscope I can’t calm down

pieces of colored life mixing despair and hope

peace anger dreams loss triumph able/unable to cope

fuck fuck fuck!!!

I’m hooked I’m in - obsessed

16 yo with husband 5 kids I’m still possessed

less than half my age

giving you up ‘d put me in a rage

yet I keep the line lest hell be loosed

close but not touching chastely seduced

I like you………………………………………...

I like you just the way you are

Have You Ever..........

 

have you ever written felt or thought

things impossible to be bought

defying reason yet mind's soul wrought

can't become for already ought

I can no longer tell you why I love you. Not only has the number of reasons exceeded the amount of time which exists in our universe to recite them, but the enormous spirit of those causes can not be expressed/held/represented in any form of language known to humanity. ….....................

but those are only two

life preserver reasons tossed at

self in the storming terror of enlightenment ...............defying reason yet mind's soul wrought

so I stand still in the circles of logic.......spinning...........

can't become for already ought...................

I slip under the waters 

breathing still

still being impossible

being

being present w strangers and loving unconditionally

doing things we've never done

…........................ to bring  grace

to the soul we all share

                            in the actions none of us have ever done

                                       

                                       creating light none of us have ever seen

From The Other Side Of The Waterfall

….......a soul's image in mirror

angel magic light wonder understand fully peace

…........known in smiles ............

…..... ....... held in tears

seen in dreams

tasted in wine

                      heard in chorus

communion from the other side of the waterfall...........

You Sorted Me

trying to find peace in my soul when my reptilian brain plunges down an elevator shaft chasing my heart.......

….......Its been so long..................

…............... reality in death throes ...........

where I start

…..........where I end

will to live surrendered to breaths that come without my permission....

so many lies manipulations

yet sunrise sunset persisting

then you came along sorted me

no more do I need your presence with a selfish heart

…..................................was am will be

….....never have I more yearned to be with anyone …............

You ….......... soothing

makes be a peaceful heart which beats with my permission –

a heart which says your name

shouts your name

sings your name

too often too many times I see your angel's wings - not elevating you but - with straining paining effort almost as if you you were attempting to deny your beauty

…...........hear listen

use my beating with permission heart pleading.......

never deny your kindness …. ever......

crisp winter awakening

torrid summer heat

in you all such meet

You struggle to love yourself but

love others without hesitation

your sensitive kindness flows to all others with ease

yet for yourself kindness comes at a high price

I want to know your light

I want to see you in my blindness

I want to touch you at infinity

I want to be with you without myself

know you no you

divinely human

seductively pure

unfulfillable desires

…......all this my being inquires

….........always

to know never

never ceasing ….................

…yearning to know the truth of your beauty

…................

Loving You Bliss And More

When shades and shadows lengthen at day's end, and my tired aching body approaching nearly 3/4 of a century asks why continue.....the answer comes in a split second of repose as I am blissfully alarmed at the answer that arrives as my soul sings to you rhapsodiclally these words......................................................................

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hey moonbeam marvel - incomprehensibly recondite femme fatale - simple elegance......Thank You for what you share so purely, for that purely elevates me to where I elevate others,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,and where I can be transcendent with you when I am with you and/or when I can not be with you at all.......... ----------------

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Health peace love friendship forgiveness mercy kindness beauty joy enthusiasm child-like-joy harmony to/for all each as is "^-"^ blank now and always........... dziękuję, gracias, 谢谢, ringrazio hanno, है धन्यवाद, remercier avoir, thank you, أشكر ديك ... A wonderful world ...... un monde merveilleux .... एक अद्भुत दुनिया .......... un mundo maravilloso ....... עולם מופלא ..... Harika bir dünya ...... 一个 美好 的 世界.. له من عالم رائع .. Peace and Health ...... Paix et santé .... ..शांति और स्वास्थ्य .... Paz y salud ..... שלום ובריאות .... 和平 与 健康 ... السلام والصحة... "^ -" ^ CZat.

Melting Candle Inamorata

                    I am crying......

                                    I am dying.....................

          I brought it upon myself.........................

I allowed the two of us to get so close that I saw the real you.....

…...............a melting candle pooling liquid heat all around you..

…                                             .............my own self helpless.......................

                                                                    

                    flightless as winged burnt moth ….............

…..........................I float into your endless beautiful sorrow

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Health peace love friendship forgiveness mercy kindness beauty joy enthusiasm child-like-joy harmony to/for all each as is "^-"^ blank now and always........... dziękuję, gracias, 谢谢, ringrazio hanno, है धन्यवाद, remercier avoir, thank you, أشكر ديك ... A wonderful world ...... un monde merveilleux .... एक अद्भुत दुनिया .......... un mundo maravilloso ....... עולם מופלא ..... Harika bir dünya ...... 一个 美好 的 世界.. له من عالم رائع .. Peace and Health ...... Paix et santé .... ..शांति और स्वास्थ्य .... Paz y salud ..... שלום ובריאות .... 和平 与 健康 ... السلام والصحة... "^ -" ^ CZat.

Confide

Are you fine feral friend reading through the reflection of mine eyes....or
 black, soft-footed wanderer .....................................

do ye seek mine eyes to confide the mysteries of our souls to 

                                   the last rays of this Heartland Winter Day's sun?..