Igniting

….numb

…...................upon awakening

ignited

…........knowing I might see you

depressed

….......I won't

spirit of all/only goodness to which doth compel

in heart/soul creation I must dwell...........................

excited

…........I will see you...........

you I know so perfectly

you I know from my perfectly broken soul

you someone of another, of others......................

You of loves deep and dependent upon you so much so

I can be but

terrified, trembling

to take another second with you

If I am to exist at all I must love all of you

each and every

Must Be

it is knowing the beauty/goodness that you embody....

convinced that that beneficence must be

somewhere

somehow

in someone something

for if not

my breath has no life to support

beauty does not exist

it is cold

and for your warmth I hunger and grace I thirst

….....................with to be

All The Time Now

I think about you all the time now

….

                       so fully ….........................................

….so completely sometimes I'm now sure if you're here or elsewhere

…..................

…....for knowing you leaves me breathless in no other consciousness

than

the totality of beauty..................

…........................in everyone everything

…...aware that I really know not you, but your happiness....

.........your burning desire..............

Sleeping Lake

…......growing swells of mixed feeling unanswerable questions

Peace is known now only amongst

….........the spaces in between............................

in the safety of things not talked about

being terrified to exist so inadequately otherwise

Receiving forgiveness from an impure moon

as I walk on a sleeping lake

pleading for beauty's drowning

for if I am not consumed totally

whatever remains – no matter how infinitesimally small -

…..will be searching for

                                   you