When Will We Live

I am thinking of you and a great terror comes upon me..............................I can't love you enough well wholly unselfishly.............. a discomfort grows physically ailing from my frail now barely beating heart though my irrelevant body muddling what's left of my mind and chilling my very soul......................I can't and so very much need want like desire hope strive and suffer unto such yearning hunger to love you yet not still consummately loving....................so scared approaching empty away....................... when will we live .............when will we live?